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As if everything wasn’t bad enough, I’m having nightmares

Apology to my followers

I’ve been really active with personal post lately..I have no friends or anybody to talk to about my day so I just kinda let it out here so please bear with me.

Today was another bad day. Started when I woke up, just like every other day. I didn’t sleep very well and felt like shit. Managed to find the strength to get outta bed and go to class. I was early cause I had some stuff to take care of in the library and as I waited in the hallway I ran into someone. I felt like a zombie in class., couldn’t even focus the slightest bit. It’s like I lost my desire to learn.
After class, I ran some errands. Then had lunch in the park. After I got home I found out something that pretty much made my day and me feel worse so I turned on some kid cudi and pretty much just drank until I felt tired and fell asleep.
Work is where it got bad. After I woke up, I went to work. I felt like shit and some of my coworkers noticed cause I wasn’t my usual self and was quieter than usual. Work itself was extremely frustrating because I had to supervise the main gate today and they gave me all new people with little to no experience there and ppl wernt doing their job correctly so I ended up yelling at some of them in front of the other workers and kicking a trash can. I’m so overwhelmed by everything tht I’m feeling and how I have everything bottled up inside that I took my frustration out on the people who wanted to work with me. People who like me. People who just two days ago told me that they felt I was the best and their favorite supervisor to work with. Add them to the list of people I’ve let down. I’m not a good person

we-r-survivors:

We Are Survivors 

we-r-survivors:

We Are Survivors 

Long as I have tumblr and a bottle of rum, I should be fine…right?

andrewfreakinghill:

Useful tips 😐

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One day, I hope I’m not so easy to forget. A reoccurring theme has been that I’ve been made replaceable and I used to be so upset at the ones who made me feel that way, but I now realize that the only one to blame is myself for not being good enough. Nobody needs me, that’s the way it’s always been.

unfathomable-injustice:

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It’s crazy ya kno, because just 7 days ago, things were so different. Knowing what I know now, if I could just go back in time, I’d pause everything

just-my-lucky13:

Fuck you, depression.

just-my-lucky13:

Fuck you, depression.

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